Wednesday, August 8, 2018

Crying to be Heard ...


Imagine screaming into the abyss.  We do it all the time.  We post pictures, video’s, catch phrases, blogs [yes, I recognize the irony], music, messages, and responses on the vast domain of the internet.  The connective tissue of the internet, or its potential at least, is astounding.  We can instantly reach “all” of our friends, and past that, anyone who happens to be passing by the content we made available.  When we post, we imagine that at least those who purport to care about us, will take some marginal notice of what we have done.  We enjoy accruing “likes” or any other method of affirmation on what we post.  But what if all you get is dead air?  Did anyone hear you?  Did anyone notice you?  Could you be screaming into the abyss of the internet without so much as a “meh” in response?  I believe our human craving to be seen, and heard, has fastened itself on a megaphone into an abyss we have no control over.  Part of this evolution leaves us more alone than we were, which in turn, exacerbates the need.  And the desire is nothing new.
We are as blind men, waiting on a response to know we were heard.  Matthew tells a story of just such men in the time of Christ.  Their blindness was physical, so their abyss was the blackness of the world around them.  They must wait to hear sounds of acknowledgement to know they were heard, or noticed, or cared about.  Because they could not see, their options for employment were highly limited.  There was no tech in their day to compensate for their condition.  Most of the time, the blind became full time beggars.  It does not take poverty long to drive one into this profession.  And it is the last profession anyone would ever want or would ever choose.  But when choices are taken from you, and options with them, begging beats dying.  So two blind men, likely companions, given the empathy they would share for each other in a world of complete blackness they both understood – found themselves just outside of Jericho.  They sat on the side of the road, hoping that travelers going to or from the city, would have just an ounce of mercy, and part with something to keep them alive.
But desperation is not attractive.  Check out any “desperate” post on the internet, and the attention it gets just seems to decrease even further.  “Desperate” cries for attention are criticized for what they are, and their authors shunned and ridiculed even more for the state they have “allowed” themselves to become.  In any social situation, the boyfriend, or girlfriend who wreaks of desperation is usually avoided even more than originally planned by the other party.  To put your “need” on display, is to force others to see your humanity, your vulnerability, and your desire to be loved.  No one wants to love someone they have not chosen to love.  So the sight of your “need” only drives people away, to mask their own lack of feelings.  They wish you gone, so not to address how they truly feel, or rather how they totally do not care, about another human being.  When you go, so does the mirror your “need” holds up to another’s soul.  The begging these blinded men performed, was no exception to this phenomenon.  Those who felt less empathy, were less inclined to even tolerate their presence very long.  Get them away, and we will feel less guilty about holding on to our coin.  This was the setting of Matthew’s story in his gospel to the Hebrews in chapter 20.
He begins in verse 29 saying … “And as they departed from Jericho, a great multitude followed him.”  This simple beginning hides something we must look deeper to examine.  When we see the context of this story described above, our immediate thought, is that the people who will shun the blind, shun those in need, are not Christians but people of the world.  Those who do not understand the love of Jesus, are more apt to push away those in need, than those who have tasted that Love.  But this story begins by establishing that a great multitude was following Christ.  You did not do that without a keen interest.  You did not do that and learn nothing, or see nothing.  Jesus was a 24x7 wellspring of love in action.  He could not move 2 steps without personally demonstrating a level of care and love for people they had never witnessed before.  Jesus was something different.  Not just His words, but His deeds, and His eyes.  His eyes could pierce you to your very soul.  You knew He knew, who you were, what you struggled with, and how He could free you from it.  Transformation in Judea was running rampant.  And a great multitude following Jesus was a wonderful field to develop a harvest of His love within.  This was the earliest church.
Matthew continues in verse 30 saying … “And, behold, two blind men sitting by the way side, when they heard that Jesus passed by, cried out, saying, Have mercy on us, O Lord, thou Son of David.”  The blind companions have heard the stories of Jesus, of His fame, of His love.  They sense He must be nearby, as this kind of a crowd traveling at this time, is just unheard of.  So their hopes begin to rise.  And they begin to cry out into the abyss, looking for One who will hear what they have posted there.  And they begin to think, it does not matter what others hear, it only matters what the One hears.  It only matters if their voices are able to reach Him, while He is near.  So instead of meekly asking for alms, they begin boldly asking for mercy.  Surely a God of mercy, will be willing to grant them Mercy.  But their cries wreak of desperation.  And the crowds are quick to respond.
Matthew continues in verse 31 saying … “And the multitude rebuked them, because they should hold their peace: but they cried the more, saying, Have mercy on us, O Lord, thou Son of David.”  This is perhaps one of the saddest texts in all of scripture.  And perhaps the most relatable to our generation.  It is the church, the followers of Jesus, who rebuke the men for asking for mercy.  Forget what the common belief was, that if you had a physical ailment, it was because you were a sinner.  Even if that lie were true.  These men were asking for mercy.  They were declaring their intent to change, to repent, to leave behind who they were, and pursue a path of mercy granted, and transformation offered.  But the church told them in an angry voice, with an angry tone, to keep silent, to go away, to shut up.  How often do your posts on the internet that uplift our God, or requests for prayer, meet with criticism, ridicule, and demands to keep silent?  How often are affirmations on spiritual topics as dry as tumbleweeds in the desert.  No one seems to hear.  And the few that do, would rather you kept your mouth shut, and your pen still.  And sadly, often those who wish you silent, wear church robes, or carry church titles – knowing doctrine well, and love nearly not at all.
But these men were not deterred by the angry voices of the crowd.  They yelled all the louder.  They were determined to drown out the voices misguided in discouraging them.  Not with insults of equal voracity, but with deeper felt cries for mercy.  This was not hate speech vs. hate speech.  This was a request for mercy, and transformation to really see who Love is – against a crowd unwilling to see desperation, or tolerate it.  The crowd was angry, the men were not.  The crowd were mean to the men.  The men had only interest in catching the ears of Christ.  And so when you are tortured by the technical abyss you put too much faith into, do not respond with hate of your own, to equal the hate that has been shown to you.  Recognize your pleas are heard by the only One who truly matters.  You have His ear, and His gratitude for your love, for your restraint in the face of evil.  Conversion does not happen at the point of a sword, but in the arms of Love reflected through any servant of His who is willing to share.  The blind companions would not be deterred, but sought Christ all the more.  So should we.
Matthew continues in verse 32 saying … “And Jesus stood still, and called them, and said, What will ye that I shall do unto you?”  Jesus heard.  Jesus acted.  Jesus never misses the pleas of one who seeks Him, even if His physical presence is not there, His Spirit is.  But then Jesus asks a very poignant question.  What do you want me to do for you?  The men were blind.  It is kind of a no-brainer what they would want.  So why ask that question?  We all have needs.  Sometimes our needs are so self-evident, we think what we want God to do for them should be a no-brainer.  But what if there are greater needs that we have, that we do not see?  Our sin, can sometimes make us blind, to what we really need, masquerading some other idea as mission critical, when in reality, it is a root cause that needs to be addressed.  These men could have asked for faith, or for wisdom, or for certainty of inheriting the Kingdom of Heaven.  They could have ignored their physical condition, and sought after something more spiritual.  Not long ago, Jesus asked the mother of James and John, what did she want from Him?  She squandered her request on something as trivial as power, she did not even understand.
Yes, those of us with physical ailment, and sickness, all want to be cured, to be fixed, to end our pain, and avoid our death for as long as possible.  We want that as much as the blind men crying out for mercy did.  But those men are long dead now.  Did they live transformed lives, changed by the power of the Love of Jesus?  Did the time they had after they were healed, get spent in self-sacrifice, or self-aggrandizement?  They are dead none the less.  So I ask you what is more important, the state of your faith, or the state of your health.  You are going to die.  It is only a matter of time.  What you do with that time, has more to do with your faith, than it will with your health.  Do not let your “blindness” or your health, become so overriding a concern, that you would pursue its remedy, and discard your faith instead.  Fully healthy people commit a great deal of sin, on purpose, by choice, with premeditation.  Sometimes they are able to sin greater, because their ability to sin is greater, not restricted by ailing bodies that will not cooperate.  Sometimes the sick sin as well.  But what Jesus is asking you is what do you want?  This question forces you to think about what is really most important to you.  It is a way of letting Jesus work in you what He sees fit to transform, not just what you think is a four-alarm fire.  Jesus is looking out for your eternal condition, not just the one in the here and now.
Matthew concludes the story picking up in verse 33 saying … “They say unto him, Lord, that our eyes may be opened. [verse 34] So Jesus had compassion on them, and touched their eyes: and immediately their eyes received sight, and they followed him.”  The story ends very well.  The men were heard.  And through the compassion of the Lord upon them (as He has for you as well), they were healed.  But way more important than that, was that they followed Him immediately.  They did not consider what they could now finally do.  They did not consider all the beautiful women they might see, but instead wondered after the beautiful Love they had encountered, that would hear them through the abyss, and bring love right to their doorstep.  Even if that was on some dusty road outside of Jericho.  Jesus did not push beggars away.  He stopped, and heard their cries.  He listened.  Because Jesus has no apathy for us, His creations.  He has passion for us.  The mirror of our need, finds only fulfillment the soul of Jesus.  He cares.  He hears you through any abyss you perceive.
And when the content you make available, is intended for the glory of God, then it does not matter if anyone else ever discovers it.  It only matters that you were willing to serve.  For it is God who deserves all the glory, we need none of it.  We can know that He hears, He sees, He reads, He listens, to everything we post.  And He looks with a passion to you, that even you will hardly ever understand.  He offers a transformation to you, that is meant just for you, custom tailored to what He knows you really need, not just what you think you do.  So you can trust Him.  No matter what it looks like the answers to your prayers are, know that He is answering the needs you really have.  If those things are not the same, then better He answer the ones He knows, than the ones you think you know.  For Jesus has eternal plans for you, and this short life, is only a beginning.  There will never be any abyss between you and Jesus, unless you force one there.  His goal is full reconciliation.  You are seen.  You are heard.  And you are loved.

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